I have been so blessed once again today. I received a very unexpected gift in the mail. I don’t know that I should say what or who it’s from. I don’t want to call them out if they want their anonymity. It’s not like a new car, or a thousand dollars or anything, but it was completely unexpected, and I was floored.
I sat here in tears. I honestly felt (all my life) like nobody liked me, nobody cared if I was around or not (In fact, I felt people were embarrassed to have me around), and I was not worthy of anybody’s love or attention.
My tears today were not from sadness. They were from bewilderment, from happiness, from feeling humbled, and unworthy. They were from realizing that people do care, I do matter, and I am thought about.
So, I can not even begin to say thank you to this chain of people (and it did take a chain of people). I can’t begin to describe what this small gesture has done to my spirits. I have so much JOY in my heart right now, I just want to pay it forward so each of y’all can feel a part of the gladness!!
Yes, I am grateful for EVERYTHING that EVERYONE has done for me over the past five months (can you believe it’s been 5 months!?!?). I have felt unworthy, embarrassed, and just like a charity case this entire time. I don’t want to downplay what everyone has done. It is my non-existent self-esteem planting insecurities in my head every time someone does a nice gesture for me. I don’t know why today was different. Maybe because it was completely out of the blue.
Please. I want everyone to feel a part of this gladness. Do something unexpected and kind for someone today. Be that out-of-the-blue person that someone needs!
Honestly, the best part was the hand-written note … FROM THIS PERSON I DON’T EVEN KNOW … That says her family is praying for me!! I cried.
Be that person for someone today!
*I don’t want to downplay all that my best friends have done for me. There are a few people who I have let into my inner circle of trust, that I believed honestly cared. I know you ALL cared, it just felt like you felt you were required somehow to help. I just have had ZERO self-esteem, and I’m a bit crazy, I guess. 😊*
**I do not own any of these graphics, but they give me All The Feels today***